so depression sets in to everyone. basketball just ruins me. well, first of all, it drains all of my freaking energy. so sleepy in class. i almost died. my head pratically let gravity pull it dwn n smack against that nice inviting table to sleep. it was abt 3hours before sch ended n i was dead tired. i can never live this life without freaking complaining. urgh!!! so tired. i get all pissy when i'm tired. sorta yelled at celin today. sry celin. damn the sleepiness... damn damn damn. depression. anouncement. alot of the sec2 basketball gals wanna quit BADLY. not going to cos that wld just be wasting 1yr2mths of suffering. waiting. hoping basketball closes down. evil? i know. what's a desparate kid to do? cry? not me. i'm not up for the melodramatic tears. depression, depression. melodramatic on the inside. but outside's just a mask. the ones that all martyrs have to wear.
~hey there delilah what's it lyk in new york city i'm a thousand miles... what wld i do if there weren't music...
~love,love,love,love,love,love...
~what if they don't like me?? music, music how i've missed it so...

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"these words were never easier for me to say or her to 2nd guess. i guess, i can live without u, but without u i'll be miserable at best"