Damn fucking pissed! bloody shit. spend my whole day just looking for the present. found it with eleanor, i noe its expensive. so denisha can't pay for it. dammit. whatever now just have to go find new one. what the bloody hell is their problem. all cannot go buy den dun want to tell me what to buy all of them damn shit. i understand if u got no money to buy but if u dun have den dun say u wanna chip in. its as good as u dun. bloody piece of shit. URGH! its always gotta be my bloody problem. FUCK! some friends.... even if i whacked myself 1000 time on a brick wall with all i got, it won't subdue this darn anger burning inside me!!!!!! i wanna be so numb. so oblivious to everything that's happening. i wanna be able to scream & no one can literally hear me. but i'm already there. i can scream at the world by the things i do, the way i do them & no one will see what's wrong with me. oh, just kill me.

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"these words were never easier for me to say or her to 2nd guess. i guess, i can live without u, but without u i'll be miserable at best"